Power Made Perfect in Weakness

To be honest, I struggled with figuring out a topic to write about this time around, it wasn't that God wasn't speaking to me, or I wasn't learning anything, it's just that they weren't things I felt I could go into depth with or really share well. So, I decided to start with the honesty that, it isn't always easy to write, I don't always feel equipped, I don't always feel that each and everyone of my posts is perfect. But that's just one of the most beautiful things I've been learning in my life, that when we are imperfect, when we feel so unworthy, or not good enough, when I feel like my words aren't doing their job, God reminds me that He uses the imperfect, the weak, the lowly, the servant, the unworthy, and He uses it for perfection, makes it strong, and sees them as worthy. And that's the flaw I have, is that I feel that I have to achieve perfection, otherwise it isn't worth anything. But isn't it just so sweet that in the midst of my feelings of inadequacy and imperfection, God uses it anyways to speak, to change, and to inspire. He does it with all of us, everyday we influence people in one way or another, and He can use our flaws to help others flourish, or even ourselves flourish. In school, I always get ahead (I stress out if I'm not), and I set such high expectations for myself, most that are so unachievable, it's ridiculous. I think in a way, it's great that I want to achieve perfection, because He is perfect, but it isn't great, because I cannot achieve perfection, but my flesh calls me a failure if I don't, yet God looks at me and loves me even though I couldn't achieve my own unachievable goal. He uses my efforts and He uses my failures to grow me. I'm not saying that to seek and aim for perfection is bad, but it is bad when it becomes your only desire, and when you think that you are perfect. When you recognize your brokenness, emptiness, bankruptcy, you see the need for a filler, a Savior. If you were already perfect, already full, why look for something to fill and fix you? We would miss God. His power is made perfect in weakness. Note that above, I mentioned that the topics God is teaching me I felt that I couldn't share well, but none of these are ever me, it's God inside of me. It's Gods Words, I'm just the one He chose to write them down. I can't take the credit, if it weren't for Him, I'd still be writing like a kindergartener, with missing letters, no spaces, and misspelled words. And to be honest, at times I do wish I could be that kindergartener again, to write what's on my mind, to not try and make it perfect, just put it out there, and sometimes I feel that I am that kindergartener in a negative way, in the way that I feel like I did a terrible job, and what I wrote didn't make any sense, but oh man... am I grateful for a God who uses even the imperfect, flawed, and broken Skyler for good, to inspire, to make a difference. Because that's Skyler all the time, imperfect, flawed, and broken, but He comes and puts me back together, because of Him I am fixed, and put together. Because of Him, my words inspire, influence, and change, my words reach the people who need to hear them. So there's my honesty and there's God's reminder. He uses even what we see as imperfect, maybe even ugly, and unusable, He comes in and uses it in ways we could never have imagined. I am weak, He is strong. I boast of my weaknesses, because He is strong, because His power is made perfect in my weakness. Because in my weakness, His power shines all the more. If I boast of my strengths, it takes away from His power, and I become prideful, looking only at myself, not marveling at Him.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:10-11